It's another Saturday night and I'm home alone. This is bullshit already. I spend my first year in Ithaca mourning the death of my mother and am just not in the position to bring new people into my life. Now that I'm a bit less teary and a bit more coherent, I don't like having two friends to count for in Ithaca. I'm bored. I need to play. I need conversation. I need females. I hate Dan tonight. I'm crying about her tonight.

I ran errands today - Target for household items and the supermarket to stock up the empty fridge before Dan comes home. I cleaned and mopped the kitchen. I worked a little bit on an article for the pet magazine. I hit the Gap for new underwear (on sale. I stock up at this time every year.) and a little something for a dear friend's 30th birthday coming up next month. I went to see Alpha Dog. I made quesedillas for dinner (v. good. I'm on a Mexican kick.) I spoke to my aunt.

Work has been slow this month. Money is tight, and I'm really trying to stay cool right now, but the truth is, my projections aren't so great for this year. I said the same thing last January, I know. I've had too much time on my hand's to worry lately. I'm in a weird place right now - professionally, personally.

I've gone to the Texas Chainsaw Massacre for coffee. It's been turned in to the cutest little coffee shop. Unfortunately (and fortunatley!) the owner bakes things like almond and apple croissants.

I'm watching a movie right now - Clean. Enjoyable. Good acting. I like hearing people speak french. Nick Nolte is a great actor.

As for Alpha Dog, I'll make my comments on Monday. I encourage you to read The New York Times review of it by Manohla Dargis.
http://movies2.nytimes.com/2007/01/12/movies/12alph.html?ref=movies

I haven't spoken to my brother since Christmas; my sister since New Year's day. I'm not sure what to say about all of this.

Signing off.