My Norman Rockwell, I Suppose

It's a bad week for me, and I wish I could say otherwise, because I wanted so badly for everything to work out Okay ... I'm just fine with Okay. One little mishap after another, and I feel so tiny. It's not so bad I suppose - in the grand scheme of things, that is.

I wish to be someone else this week. Someone thin and perhaps a redhead, someone with two parents and a brother and sister who are closer in age. My mother's mother will live at home with us. My brother will be a third year in college on a full athletic scholarship and my sister will be out of college for two years, working for a major internet company. They will be wildly successful for their ages, and their future will be one of great promise and integrity.

I will have a different career, one that will allow me to utilize my organic math and science skills - I will be a criminologist or a patholigist. I will have cat and a bird. I will wear sneakers, often. I will like modern decor. My hair will be stick straight, and I will whine at having to blow dry it every morning.

My father will be a plastic surgeon with a lucrative private practice. My mother will own a craft store and create seasonal wreaths and decorate Christmas trees for the affluent crowd. We will all still get together for a pasta dinner once a week.

This is only part of my alternate life. I could dream, but what is it really worth. And do I dislike who I really am? I don't believe that I do.

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Donald and Rosie at War

Click on title of post to read about this little spat. I love Donald's response.

Good Morning

My Christmas List

Dear Santa,

Since I have been such a good girl this year, I hope you can help to fulfill some of these holiday wishes. Here's my list: Clive Owen, Season 5 of Footballers' Wives to air on BBC, 6 FT Under to come back to HBO, a Monogram Louis Vuitton, a baby girl Pug, the UGG Cargo boots in brown, the world's smallest horse (see previous post), a kiss from Andrian Grenier, Old School Part II, liposuction performed by Dr. Christian Troy, a one-way ticket to Amsterdam, a case of Maximum Strength Tums, the big giant rabbit that has been terrorizing crops in France (he looks so cuddly), a good fuck byAnthony Kiedis, also a special perfomance by the Red Hot Chili Peppers in my living room (Stace and Amez can come), a shopping spree at Target, for Daniel Craig to look me in the eyes just once, new black eyeglasses with rhinestones in the corner, Audi TT, Howard Stern streamed on the Internet and a pink scarf.

Give Mrs. Claus a big kiss for me.

XO,
Annie

P.S. Also, can Hillary Duff stop making albums and get her old teeth back?

Oh Leo

I have been to the gym three days in a row and am very pleased with this. However, my chocoloate intake is at its highest in months. I don't really even like chocolate that much.

So a good majority of the Christmas gift wrapping was done yesterday, which is a just a great relief as my office was overwhelmed with shopping bags.

We also went to see Blood Diamond, which was great. I realize that I love Leonardo Dicaprio movies - except that sappy Titanic where he was painfully miscast. He was phenomenal in The Departed and Catch Me if You Can. I like that he's a little more filled out in Blood Diamond - he looks more masculine.

Soooo, with that said we're putting him on the Hot List.

Intriguing

This is true shock & awe. I mean wha? What brilliant group of people thunk this? Click on post title to read full story.

Here She Blows

My Digital Camera

After four months, I finally took the time to install the software and download my photos. Today is a super busy day for me and my eye is twitching.

BABY at a gorge on campus
ME at the Corning Museum of Glass
DAN at the Corning Museum of Glass

O Christmass Tree Part II

O Christmas Tree

This weekend was just great. We cut down our Christmas Tree, a beautiful fat one with lots of sap. She is so round that we had to rearrange our entire living room just to accomodate her. We struggled last night getting her in the stand (does one exist that actually works?), but finally got her standing straight and proud. This morning she was on the floor. Bollacks.

(I have some pictures of this event that I will post soon - once I figure it out.)

A must see is Stranger Than Fiction. So wonderfully dry, great acting and Maggie. Love her. Love her. Love her.

Lots of dreams about Mama lately. Strange, but OK. I welcome seeing her in my sleep.

I have another post coming soon. Signing off.

And It Will Snow Today - I Can Smell It

"For some, they find some peace focusing on the person's life and not just his or her death. "

-Unknown

For those of you who asked if I watched Nip/Tuck - well, I finally caught it last night. Sean is certainly a mess, and he's almost becoming annoying for me to watch. This whole Scientology thing is a total bug out, but I think a rather ingenious element to the show's overall storyline. I miss Julia - I just love her.

Anyway, I've noticed that I've been crying alot during television shows - particularly at gross injustices, extreme brutality and most crimes committed with guns. I may have to forego the CSI series and the Law & Order series if this continues. I feel like a nut. I mean I know it's not real, but still ...

So I have to tout a web site that just made my life a helluva lot easier www.gifts.com. Dan is IMPOSSIBLE to shop for, and now he's almost done with just a coupla clicks of the mouse. Cheers.

Signing off.

Let's Write In

There is all of this talk about why Naomi Campbell/Gael Garcia Bernal coupling is so strange. I'm curious to hear your thoughts. Here was my initial reaction:

Naomi - well, she may be one of the world's most well-known models, but let's be real here and admit that Naomi hasn't fully evolved. She's part cave woman. And who is she modelling for these days ... Rocawear

Gael - he's so avant-garde that it seems entirely unrealistic that he would pick such a beastie

LOL

Please tell me someone things this picture is as funny as I do.

&*%$#@#@@!^$ And a Merry Christmas

I am so not happy with what the scale read this morning. I just keep gaining weight - like 10 pounds since the gyno in August. No, please, this can't be right.

Dan lost six pounds. I haven't really noticed him dieting though. Must have something to do with those typhoid pills he's been taking for his India trip. Maybe I should start taking those.

I'm going to close my eyes really tight and try to go back in time like that Japanese character on Heroes (I love that show). OK - good. The scale read 120 lbs.

Stace, Kimmee/Jason please let me know what day you guys are going to be coming up after Christmas. I'm thinking about taking the entire week off.

Chris is coming to visit this weekend and we're getting the tree. Yes, I'm doing Christmas proud this year. As much as I miss my Mom. As much as I hate this turn of events that I can not control. The people around me have the right to enjoy the holidays. And for Danny - who can't wait to cut down a 15 ft. tree. I love him - he's so wonderfully bizarre.

I will close my eyes and go back in time to this day when we were all young and we said goodnight instead of goodbye.

Firecrotch

Or is it Firesnatch? (Click on Title of Post.)

Anyway, what is up with this girl. Maybe someone in AA will give her a pair of knickers.

Whadda Weekend

Busy, busy, busy BUT fun, fun, fun. I am so tired today that I'm not sure what to do with myself. I would take the morning off if I could pull away from my e-mail.

I had an absolute blast with Kathryn and Tom. Dinner at Oriental Diner with Dan's mom was equally enjoyable. And I ended a near perfect Saturday with a sold out venue for my client's concert. I got to see Miss Amy - my perfectly intolerable sister. Though she is the one person who can make my blood boil without ever saying a word, I can't help but want to smother her with hugs and kisses.

Sunday I visited my dear friend Sandra and her fantastic kids. She made pancakes, omelettes and muffins - all delish. We had fun catching up ... if only there was more time.

I just can't wait to be around all of my friends again. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally in love with Ithaca, but I need a social life again. It's not easy making new friends when you've been in mourning.

I made it back to Ithaca (I was about to say Somers) at about 6pm and thought I would fall asleep within two hours, but no such luck. I was awake until about 2am - yet again.

I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping. Hooray!

Anyway, I need to down some more coffee and take my vitamins. Signing off.